One more year...personally i could give a flying fuck about new years, sure its a great time to party but nothing big to freak out for, but for what its worth i'll just say for those of you who care to hear it, happy new year. aside from me finally turning 18 this year i have a lack of things to be looking forward to, not saying that theres a bunch of negative stuff that i plan on happening, im just going to let stuff happen. so ya, thats basically it, i'll try to post more stuff on here when i get time or insperation because i desperatly need the pratice. anyway, i'll let you all go now, thanks for stopping by and reading.

PS: dont worry, you all shouldnt have to deal with any more emo journals for a good while envolving my family. you may all express your relief.

....If we look back onto the US history we can see the basic structure of a family. Two parents happily married, and there three children attending school and living the american dream, coming home to a freshly cooked meal and a steaming slice of apple pie with a scoop of Vanilla icecream.

As much as others may want to think thats how families are now and days...my watchers, i am sorry to say that you are deathly wrong. My life is far from perfect as is most everyone elses, and at this point i don't know where to turn. My mother and father got divorced when i was 10, leaving my to try and keep my two younger siblings together from ripping this ex-"family" apart.

Fast forward about 7 years. My father is an avid drunk getting shit-face wasted every weekend and picking fights with my younger brother without fail. He refuses to pay for anything no matter how small if he sees it unfit, or if he's angry with us. I have an oblivious step mom who only caters to her child and tries to satisify our basic needs while teaching, trying to keep her son in contact with his real biological father who has not shown up (though has promiced to on several occassions) for nearly a year, and keep her husband's rage at bay. My sister is at the end of her rope with our father and at 13 has decited to move in with our mother and hopefully avoid this foul influence we have come to know as a "father". Just today i have found out that my father no longer wishes to support my brother and is kicking him out of his house. He is packing as i type this so he can live with our mother...mark my words watchers, friends, and readers alike, by the pass of two years from now my father will have no one left. I know my step mom can only take so much, my siblings have moved out, and i am colage bound. Anyone who reads this journal i ask that you not pity me in any way. These actions have hurt me deeply and i may never gain the respect for my father that he request, tough in my openion it is far to much. you must give respect if you wish to have it in return. God save my soul if he finds this for i am sure it will be the end of me...thank you, everyone who actually takes the time to read these little bits of my life that i try to let everyone know about...Thank you, everyone.

Rules:
1. tag 10 peeps (not the one who sent it to you!0
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tagges on their profile that they have been tagged, and link to your journal.

Info
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[xx] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents. (behind there back of course lol)
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[>] I want to have kids someday (kinda yes, kinda no, so half an "x")
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do/did my homework
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[xxxxxx] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[xxxx] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex. (yep yep yep lololololol)
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x]I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

DX well i'm sure thats not too good lol.

On a side note my boyfriend and i have offically broken up this time. I'm hurt yes, but it's a wound that will heal quickly because he and i are still close friends. Course that doesn't mean i'm not gay anymore or anything...oh and Veronica, Victoria, Jay'Da or whoever the hell else i know who reads this: If you even ATTEMPT to try and hook me up with someone you will get the worst bitching of your life...besides Veronica who can out-bitch with the best.

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1) I am Terrified of bees/wasps etc.

2) I still enjoy playing the Pokemon Games

3) I think the Dragon Ball eries should crawl into a hole and die

4) I get erridable if expsoed to the sun

5) I love garlic

6) I am prone to frequent art blocks

7) I use Firefox and i'm proud

8) Xemy Saix puppies= PHAIL



Aside from the thing above i've had one hell of a week. My Great Grandmother passed away yesterday and i would be attending her funeral if i wasn't sick. Currently i am restricted to my bedroom with what i think is strep throat and a 103 degree fever. On top of all of this my brother (being the idiot that he is) just got out of surgery a few days ago. Long story short he had a golf ball sized cyst growing on his tailbone and had to get it surgicly removed, and is now left with a gaping wound (yes i mean like open hole) on his lower back, about two and a half inches deep, six inches long, and three inches wide. Apperantly he didn't think much of a growth on his lower back, again he's an idiot.

Aisde from the negatives, band camp starts next week which is alright, hot sun, heavy instruments and LOUDNESS beyond all means, so ya, lots of fun. With band comes school, and school with friends and old faces, though we lack a few key senyors which shall be missed, we will be heading most of this stuff this year (yay for anime club) but ya aside from that nothing much...head hurts and i feel like a icecube which can't be good. So i suppose you'll hear from me again once i get a new journal.